Having surgery is certainly not any fun and I for one would rather pass on having this one done. But I know that I will regret it if I don't have the doctor work on improving the mobility of my knee. I have had such angst over having this surgery and on Saturday it just consumed my thinking. I just wanted to go and run somewhere with my legs flying and feeling my body breathing hard from a good run. I have really missed my days of a good hard workout and moving my body in a way that I can't right now because of my broken body. I look forward to being free to do whatever I want to without worrying about hurting my knee or my shoulder. I just feel so trapped with the lack of movement I have. And I know those feelings are going to get worse as I have this surgery on Thursday and I am REALLY limited on what I can do.
Michael noted my emotional state and my angst about all this on Saturday so he made the day very special for me. He took me to lunch at Maddoxx's, we went to the movie with the kids, we planned a party for the girls, we had a fun fire outside with marshmallows and hot dogs, it was just a fun day together. He tried really hard to get me to laugh about all this and get my mind off of it. He is a great strength to me. He gave me a wonderful blessing last night that really brought a feeling of peace and comfort to my heart. I know that everything will be fine---I just don't like going through all of this. I wish that I could just get a shot and my knee would be fixed!!! What a great idea!!! I will have to work on that while I am layed up from having surgery--this time.
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